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Sweeping back the cobwebs of time, she recalls the moments when she was oblivious of anything else but her ballet teacher beckoning her to take her Grade 8 ballet examination certificate. Her heart grew a little flutter each time her breath grew ragged as she peeked at her grade. The next moment, she was euphoric when she saw the word “Distinction” printed in bold on the certificate! Never was she so elated in her entire lifetime and she had a grin plastered across her face for that entire day. So many years had gone into that moment and it was her perseverance that kept her moving all the way through. That real life example of the fruitful rewards of being persevere in whatever she does did have a marked impact on her indeed. That was quite some time ago, approximately two years past and she is now persistently progressing forward in life.

When she was a kid, it has been her dream to become a ballerina ever since. It all started when she saw her mother sending her “big” sister to the ballet academy and the sight of her sister dressed in the pink tutu was what enlivened her the most. Aside from ballet, there were a whole bunch of things that caught her attention and at one moment, simply anything and everything just seemed to be so fun and appealing to her. She soon picked up organ, drawing and athletics, all of which were something that she never regretted picking up. In fact she was thankful of her parents for granting her wishes to ascertain whichever of all these that she asked for. These had certainly enriched her life and she could not bring herself to imagine what would her life be like if, she never did all these to fill up her free time as she is someone who enjoys nothing more but to to keep herself occupied with things she finds tempting. Perhaps she might not turn out to be the same person as she is today.

There’s one thing that she particularly takes pleasure in doing the most and something that she anticipates towards every year. And that something which seems to be so special to her is actually to vacate in the neighbouring country- the Philippines. Having said that, people might whirl about what made that so special for her and they might not even understand why she picked the Philippines out of so many destinations out there. However, the place meant a whole lot for her as it was where her mother came from. There are so many things about the Philippines that she loves about. What tops the list is the fact she gets to meet her grandmother, followed by the people, the food, the beaches, the amazing shopping malls and this list is endless! Nevertheless, her grandmother departs this life three years ago. Her family once doubted if their trip back there still beholds any meaning with the demise of their beloved. At that instant, she was quick to convince her mother that there are and in fact, there are loads of them. Somehow she never fails to see something unique about that place, maybe because a part of her belongs to there.

She prefer not to write up everything on her face and for that particular reason, most people decipher her as cold and numb to her surroundings. In times, there are things that she cared for but some who don’t actually know her assume that she does not and perchance that explains why she has few bosom buddies. Also, she doubts her ability and is unsure of herself. Too often, she is not bold enough to do what her inner self tells her to for she always qualm. She tries to trounce this side of her, alas, this needs time. She strongly believes that for everything she has missed, she has gained something else and for everything she has gain, she losses something else.

Everyone has their very own version of her but one thing for sure she herself wouldn’t trade hers for anything else in the world. She simply knows why.